I dont post often anymore. been busy working hard on my body instead of on Tumblr! lol
still plugging away, i’ve been doing the Insanity videos. very hard, and because of this i bumped up my calorie intake to 800-1000 per day, up from 500-800 a day. lots of people not asking if i’ve lost weight but outright stating, damn, you’re getting skinny! i am not, by any means, skinny. My bmi went from 45 to 39. but what they don’t know: i will be skinny again, sooner than later….
845 calories so far today, about to get down and burn 1,000! it’s gonna hurt, I’m already halfway through a tube of bengay and this is day three of my 60 day workout program… very very hard!
I was eating like a pig, or my bf says, how a “normal” person eats.He kept telling me I can’t loose weight if I dont eat, my muscles will deteriorate, and I’ll starve my metabolism to a standstill.
Now I think, K, so what? I dont care as long as the numbers go down.
It seemed to break my plateau though, I’m at 25 lbs lost in two months.
Yesterday, I ate: One bite of cheese pizza, one bite of salad, one bite of pistacchio ice cream (yes, i am weak), and one bite of leftover black beans. A venti iced coffee- I’m getting better at using less cream. I prolly ate less than 100-150 calories total.
… feeling so down on myself that i wouldn’t eat so much as one leaf of spinach. Seriously, you could shove any delicious/healthy food item in my face and i would not even be “tempted.”
Actually, at one point i thought about touching the leftovers from last night, briefly. ((Bf wanted to do the sweet guy thing and take me out to eat… And i was already damn near binge-mode hungry, so i did NOT order a salad….)) Realized that N ate almost all it, realized that I didnt really deserve to eat that fattening shit, anyway, and decided against cooking dinner.
Wow… really? That’s all I’ve eaten today? :D And I walked on my lunch but it was short due to crappy weather. and my other workout burned at least 200 calories.
Goal for the day: no more than 300-315 calories… Intake: 250 calories
- 200 burned = net 50 calories…
But I’m still a fat pig, because I’m sitting here contemplating how I could “spend” the remaining 50 calories. A pickle? A salad with half an egg? I’d have light cheese and strawberries (98 calories) but it would be too much. 348 would be too much. Maybe I will eat nothing instead.